bakit ganun?
kung kelan naman kakasabi ko lang na okey na okey ako sa kalagayan ko ngayon, eto na naman, may susulpot namang pangyayari...hay!
hindi ko masabi kung maganda ba o hindi ito, pero ang alam ko lang, nakakalito, nakakasuya, nakakainis, nakakamiss, nakakapanghinayang.....
...pero may ngiti na muli ang aking mga labi.
bakit kaya?
Dear Angel,
It’s not everyday that I get to thank God for all the blessings I have been receiving from Him and I realized that this is a good time.
When I met you, I know that you are that one person that God sent me in order to appreciate my life more… the life that I chose to live, a life that I simply took own control of. I chose to believe in what felt good and convenient for me, the life that I thought was God’s will. I took it out of my own understanding, I boasted about it because I simply thought that I can do it alone. I am strong and I can manage!
But when I was giving up, you were there. When I was beginning to rise up, you had your share of falls and downsides which gave me a feeling that I belong, that I am needed, that I am important no matter how unworthy I feel and saw myself then. You gave me all that.
Never a single day that I forgot about the moment when we opened up and begin to share God’s love. I can still remember the shoulder you gave me when I had to shed tears then. You were a friend…you still are. And now that I am finally getting through the pains and scars of the past, I find myself invited by the thoughts of you. If I wasn’t there, I am sorry. For a number of callings and a couple of minutes to talk and I wasn't available, forgive me. But I always think of you... just like now.
I know and I feel that there is one person who continues to pray for me ------and that is you. Now I am relieved because I found my missing self again. I am ready to take on and face the world that I left.
I’ll meet you sometime, probably share a cup of coffee and talk about things like we used to. And hey, I’ll be joining a prayer group again so I can bring back my old self. I will continuously pray for the both of us so we may find the peace that I know we both need.
God bless! I miss you my angel!
- Lain
